Wednesday, 15 August 2012
So I bought a new bikini yesterday to wear this weekend. It's really cute but I feel way to fat to wear it. I need way more definition in my abs. My love handles have a muffin. My inner thighs are so blubbery.
Be honest- would I be a disgusting spectacle if I went out in public like this? I am going to work my ass off until Saturday to improve as much as possible, but still.
I downloaded some AWESOME apps on my phone yesterday- one is called plastic surgery simulator. Plastic surgery scares me, and I'd probably never do it, but I fantasize sometimes. And just like real life... when I played with it I kept making more and more adjustments until the whole picture looked like watercolors. And THAT is why I'll never do it, lol. I also got a weight loss simulator where you can take pounds off. I think I will look good at my goal which is about 20-25lbs.
Anyway, E2 was too sick to see me last night =[ but we are both really excited for Saturday. It'll be awesome =] aaahhhhh I can't wait!! It'll be the first time we get to be alone together except the car ride back the other night. My stomach is doing flips just thinking about it. I feel so super weird... Like one of those girls who moves too fast and scares guys away. In my head I tell him I love him, lol. It's silly cause there's no way I could possibly yet, but I just want to burst. I'm never like this... then again he talks about having my kids over his house and wants to know about my family life and all... he definately isn't in one night stand mode. Ok, got to stop overanalyzing this NOW.
Oh and that black british guy T is still all over my business. He is also VERY hot, and pretty rich, but idk he just doesn't do it for me like E2. He keeps asking to hang out, texts me all the time and comments my facebook constantly. I wonder if E2 has a facebook...