Monday, 07 January 2013
Well hey. In such a weird mood and not feeling very connected to my blog lately. I'm not sure if it's lack of response, lack of other people really posting or what. It's not lack of motivation though, as it usually is. I have been really determined.
I'm scared to lose my license next week. I need to talk to my lawyer, make sure he understands how important this is.... I don't think he gives a shit.
I had dinner last night with my two real best friends, introduced them to The Money. They both loved him, so did The Gay's boyfriend. I wasn't suprised at all. I knew they'd love him. He's driving me crazy though. He's GOT TO RELAX. I'm getting the sense more and more that he truely does want me the way I want to be wanted... but the athiest thing really bothers me. I don't feel like an athiest and a Christian love the same way. God plays a huge role in how I feel about the ones I'm close to. He can't relate to that at all, and I can't relate to what he feels. To me, the lack of God means lack of a soul, lack of soul equals lack of love. I don't get it. But I am giving him a chance.